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Meet Lexi
spilt water bowls, midnight toe-chewings, shredded curtains, early morning wrestling -
absolute bliss
Do you remember the feeling of having a loose tooth as a child? I had completely forgotten that feeling - wiggling the tooth around with your toungue, that weird hole when it was gone - the taste. Do you remember?
I have a very difficult time turning things off in my head. The best description of this I've ever heard comes from a marriage book called "What Women Want". The author describes a woman's brain in terms of a computer. This is pretty good. I have things that are constantly running in the background, which generally includes the happiness and wellbeing of those in my sphere. And then I have other programs and "windows" that are in use - planning for a vacation, planting a garden, baby shower gift buying which makes me think about babies and how I will be an old woman before I have any, and the conversation with my husband at lunch, what I'm going to make for lunch tomorrow, what am I going to make for potluck, do we have money for groceries this week.......it really goes on and on from there. At this moment there are at least - AT LEAST - 10 windows open in my brain. Usually its o.k. because I can handle a lot at one time, but sometimes it becomes too much and I get very overwhelmed. It's not pretty. Fortunately, God gave me a wonderful husband who helps me through these times. He sits down with me and helps me close the windows one at a time until all is managable again. It's really quite wonderful, and I am so grateful.
I have had a strange blog-block for a while; almost a phobia. Weird. Anyway, here's a few things going on in my life:
* My dear Lindsey is gone. When you live in a university-sphere, you come to expect lots of good-byes, and while they are sad - you learn an incredible about about life from each of the people you meet. Besides knitting, I learned about being an incredible wife and beautiful mother from Lindsey. She is always her husband's biggest fan and I've never heard her gain sympathy from her friends at his expense. They are a great team. And I got to watch her become a mother - with a quiet and peaceful contentment. She was amazing to watch, despite the discomforts of pregnancy and despite giving birth and despite the exhaustion of having a newborn; I never heard her complain. Not once. Thank-you Lindsey for all the lessons you didn't know you were giving.
* I finished my Medieval Romance class. I was glad to have the paper all done, but so sad the class is over. I enjoyed it so much. Ah well, on to the next one!
* My garden is growing, growing, growing. Soon it will be safe to put these sweet little sprigs of green in the ground...so they can grow to their hearts content. I never thought I would enjoy gardening, and in all actuality I haven't done any of the hard stuff yet, but I never thought I would enjoy cool soil so much....
* I have tulips growing in my backyard! These I didn't not plant - they just happened. I really have no more to say about them, but for some reason this seems like an important part of my life right now. I cut a few yellow and red ones the other day and put them in a vase in my living room - I just stared at them all evening, I couldn't take my eyes off them, it was lovely.
* I am leaving for England and Italy in 23 days! I am very excited, but I feel a strange maniac need to get new clothes for myself and my husband. I hate shopping, and we haven't bought new clothes in a long time, but for some reason it feels very important.
* and finally, I still want a baby. The longing is always there now. It used to come in go in waves and now I always feel it...the waves are just stronger longings. Life is so funny, I spent all that time and energy in school .... am still spending it, and I want to teach still, but I would give it up in a second if I could have a baby now - no questions asked.
Have a beautiful Monday my friends.
