I really want a child...my own child. It's a new feeling and quite strong and completely impractical. My husband and I are both students...we have just enough money to feed ourselves...we live in a small one-bedroom apartment. These are just the temporal and situational considerations, now lets take a look at me. I like to be able to go where I want - when I want, I don't like to carry around a lot of things (i.e. strollers, diaper bags, etc.), I get more than a little irritated when I can't sleep through the night, I don't do well with sick things, I enjoy long periods of absolute silence, I feel entitled to lazy Sunday mornings, I complain about housework and there are only two of us to clean-up after. And yet......I really want a new little person in the world, my child.
You need to get a pet. It'll help with the baby fever. I have my puppy, and he's my baby.
I can spoil him, he's affectionate, he doesn't make too big of mess nor too much noise. I can't really take him places with me (90lb. german shepherds aren't welcome everwhere - who knew!) - so it works out perfectly! And I don't have to deal with terrible 2's or the teenage years; he'll never date, get drunk and go to jail, or leave home.
Its perfect!
It is a strange thing that takes over our chemistry when we get married to our best friend and wonderful love. I understand completely. It is a deep longing and beautiful desire of the heart to have a baby with the one you love. It is an inner desire that God placed within you ready to turn on "to be fruitful and multiply." It shows you a different wonderful love that you didn't know you were capable of and helps you to understand part of God's love for you. Graduate quickly and have a baby.
Oh my dear Jodi, you will have a baby. Maybe not right now, but you will. Heck, you might have eight!
For now, you need to get a kitty up in that apartment asap!
xoxo